I Grieve For My Madness

I grieve for my madness
 Now it’s so calm and still
 Everything’s so dull compared to 
 When I was ill
  
 I saw vibrant colours 
 Each subtle shade of green 
 Took my crazy breath away 
 In a psychedelic dream
  
 I could love a man so deeply
 I wouldn’t let him rest
 I tried to melt right into him 
 To climb inside his chest
  
 I was never bored
 It never stopped at all
 My head was a pinball machine 
 My thoughts the silver balls
  
 I wrote ten million words, I cried ten million tears
 I rode the rollercoaster, for thirty manic years
  
 But that overwhelming beauty
 In the forest and the town
 Turned to Earthly terror
 On the turn around
  
 And the men I had all left me
 They didn’t want that love
 I was “too intense” 
 And they could never be enough
  
 And it had to end sometime
 You can’t go on like that..
 It just seems a little boring
 It just feels a little flat
  
 So I’ll mourn my insanity 
 But I will let it go
 And embrace reality
 Although it’s rather slow